"AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!" -'nuff said!

Wow! It's been quite the nite/day! First I get the WORST news of my life!(NEVER thought I would EVER hear that!) Then, MORE BAD NEWS! ...Don't really feel like explaining details; but all in all; IT'S GETTING WORSE! I mean; the more I think about it all(CAN'T STOP!-obvioulsy!), the more mad/upset I get; and the more I just wanna die! ...In SOME WAYS, I wanna go home! NOW! But then again; I really don't!(for so many reasons!-too much MORE idiotic crap to deal w/ there!) Somebody SAVE ME!!! I just need to scream: "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!" Okay, I feel somewhat better now. I'm OUT! Lata, y'all!

MY KITTY!(RIP Peachy! 'Home's definitely not the same w/o you to cuddle w/ at nite! Jake's so lost w/o you too! He's now become my new sidekick at home b/c he knows that I'm just as lonely as he is w/o you there!" *Mwah!*) I LOVE YOU!!! 

My new baby cousin, Matthew! 

Trish and me on our last day @ NHS! (We were the BEST DAMN attendance secretaries that Norwin had EVER seen! -"Guard *the pen* w/ your life!!!" LOL Trish!) 

Trish, Kendge, and me on our last day @ NHS! 

Kendge, Trish, and me @ the Kenny Chesney concert! 

Me and Trish @ ENP after graduation!(the nite we'll all NEVER FORGET!-CLOWN CAR!) lol 

Kendge, Trish, and me after graduation! 

Hungry, Kendge, Trish, and me after graduation! 

ME! 

I'm a Pittsburgh girl...

"A PITTSBURGH GIRL KNOWS JUST AS MUCH ABOUT FOOTBALL AS HER GUY FRIENDS, IN SOME CASES, EVEN MORE. SHE DRINKS BEER BECAUSE IT TASTES GOOD BUT KNOWS WHEN TO BE CLASSY AND DRINK SOMETHING MORE SOPHISTICATED. SHE OWNS A STEELER JERSEY NOT JUST BECAUSE ITS CUTE BUT BECAUSE SHE SUPPORTS HER TEAM AND UNDERSTANDS THE GAME. SHE LOVES KENNYWOOD AND ISN'T AFRAID TO ORDER CHEESE FRIES FROM THE POTATO PATCH BECAUSE, LETS FACE IT, PITTSBURGH GIRLS WEAR WINTER COATS AND SCARVES A LOT MORE THAN BIKINIS AND FLIP FLOPS. A PITTSBURGH GIRL LOVES ST. PATRICK'S DAY EVEN IF SHES NOT IRISH BECAUSE GREEN BEER IS GOOD FOR THE SOUL. PITTSBURGH GIRLS DON'T HAVE A FUNNY ACCENT. THEY JUST SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE. THE WORD YINZ IS DEAR TO HER HEART. A PITTSBURGH GIRL BLEEDS BLACK AND GOLD AND KNOWS HOW TO HAVE A GREAT TIME. SHES STYLISH AND SWEET AND NEVER TRASHY. SHE HAS A GREAT EDUCATION AND LOVES HER FRIENDS AND FAMILY. A PITTSBURGH GIRL GOES TO CHURCH ON SUNDAY HUNG OVER, ONLY TO BE LET OUT BY THE PRIEST EARLY BECAUSE THE STEELERS KICK OFF AT ONE. A PITTSBURGH GIRL MIGHT NOT LIVE BY THE BEACH BUT THE THREE RIVERS ARE JUST AS GOOD! SHE HAS SEEN ALL FOUR SEASONS AND HAS A REASON TO LOVE AND HATE EACH OF THEM. SHES THE TYPE OF GIRL YOU CAN CALL LATE AT NIGHT AND SPILL YOUR HEART OUT TO. SHES THE TYPE YOU CAN TAKE HOME TO MOM AND DAD WITHOUT WORRYING THEY WON'T LIKE HER. BECAUSE EVERYONE LOVES A PITTSBURGH GIRL. IF YOU NEED A GIRL TO TAKE TO THE GAME, SHE'LL BE THERE. IF YOU NEED A FRIEND TO HELP YOU OUT AT THE MALL, SHES THERE. IF YOU NEED A DRINKING BUDDY, SHE'LL BE THERE WITH HER IC LIGHT. SO GIVE HER A POKE IF YOU LOVE HER. SEND HER A MESSAGE AND LET HER KNOW YOU CARE. COPY AND PASTE THIS ON HER WALL TO LET HER KNOW: YOU CAN TAKE THE GIRL OUT OF PITTSBURGH BUT YOU CAN'T TAKE THE PITTSBURGH OUT OF THE GIRL!" I'm totally a Pittsburgh girl, and DAMN PROUD OF IT!

What a GREAT half of a weekend! :-D

Well, Mark came up to visit me yesterday. It was just so nice to see him and spend some time w/ him! I never wanted it to end! :-( But I'm sure I'll see him again soon; or at least I hope so. I was just really bummed when it came time for him to leave.(It just made me realize that YES; we are quite some miles apart; but I just felt like he only lived just down the street! -Yeah; I wish! Then, I'd see him all the time.) But, I guess for now; I'll just deal w/ only seeing him. on adverage, about once a month; and just stick to the online/phone convo's everyday. :-) I just really have to look forward to next year when I transfer from here; and hopefully I'll see him more than once a month. *crosses fingers* ...Well, I'm gonna go watch some tv and attempt to get SOME sleep b/c I didn't sleep at all last nite(of course, would you if you were all alone?).

Happy Sweetest Day!

Happy Sweetest Day, everyone! Today, is a day to go out and celebrate being w/ the one you love; if you have no *special someone*, then just LOVE YOUR FRIENDS!(b/c you know they'll always be there for ya!) :-) ... "Happy Sweetest Day, Mark!" :-* I hope everyone has a wonderful day, and GREAT rest of the weekend!

I think I found my *happy point* in life!

I do believe that I've finally found my *happy point* in life! ... It's only been about 3 weeks; but, we talk everyday/have so much in common/just laugh about everything/and he's so sweet! I actually went home this past weekend, not only to see my friends; but to meet him face-to-face! He's everything I expected, and MORE!

I know this is kinda nice to think about; but for me it's scary. My mom came w/ me to meet him; and by the time the nite was over, she was already talking about having him *meet the rest of the family*. (Yeah, thas sweet!, but I don't even know him as well as I'd like to yet; so I'm hoping she keeps her mouth shut, and just doesn't say too much about it yet.)

Yes, it's nice to know that there's finally someone out there that really cares about me! (I mean, I've gone thru some real retarded relationships in my days; and I'm just scared for this one.) After all; we aren't that close in distance, and it just scares me sometimes b/c I don't know who he's w/, or what he's doing. (I mean, this could be JUST ANOTHER IDIOT RELATIONSHIP, w/ a cheater; but I really hope not! I really do like this one!) We get along so well; it's amazing!

I guess I'm just really confused right now; and have no idea what's gonna happen! I would hope that we can pursue this relationship, and just trust each other-knowing that when you wake up in the morning; you didn't get skrewed over and end up w/ YET ANOTHER broken heart. I'm just gonna cross my fingers, and hope this one works out for the best! :-)

WOW! What a crazy week!

Well, it all started when my roommates all moved in last Thursday. They decided to tell embarrassing stories about ppl from their high schools. (My mom was here for the night too.) So, they pranked this one girl, and almost ended up w/ harrasment charges by the mother who threatened to call the cops on them. CRAZY! Then, after apologizing for like an hour, everything was kool. Then, mom and I went to wal-mart to try and get an ethernet cable for me to get online. I didn't fit (computer is too old), so we went back and baught a card that needed installed in the tower. I did that, then worked for like 4 days trying to get online, but I couldn't. So, I gave up for alittle while, then I tried again today, and it worked! *YAY!* So, here I am! Online, and back in action! tty'all later!

CRAZY TIMES!

wow! my summer was soooo crazy! between working all the time, and seeing my family, and seeing all my george's, i was really busy! But now that I'm up here in Oil City, at the school library(i don't have my computer yet), I miss everyone and everything about being at home! Yeah, I'm 2 & 1/2 hrs from home, but still I don't have long distance on my apartment phone, so everytime I wanna talk to someone, I have to use my cell. Right now I'm talking to T-George (G-Unit), and just telling her how bored I am and how much I miss everyone @ home! I think college is going to be an experience for me. not sure what kind of experience just yet, but we'll find out! Well, that's all for now I guess. But I'll be back soon!

What Memories Pictures Have!

WOW! Well, Smev posted a comment on my recently new Xanga site, and linked it to a site w/ webshots pix. Some of those pix included a "special someone" from the past, but one who will ALWAYS hold a very special place in my heart. When I first looked through them, I got a bit teary-eyed, but then began to smile. I just thought of how he will always be MY bball star, and I will never, ever forget him as long as I live. Yeah, it really broke my heart to see him leave and go so far off to college, but next year, I won't be very far anymore. (He's in NY, and I'll be in Erie, PA.) So, maybe, if I get the chance to travel a bit, I'll try and find him. **plans evil plot** *lol* Aight, I have to go, but I'll be back soon, I promise! Luvs to all!

What a Night!

Last afternoon/evening was really interesting! First, I did alittle homework, then ate dinner(Beef Stroganoff-YUM!), then cleaned & packed for about an hour and a half. Then, mom came home from work. We had a very interesting chat. About prom, finals, graduation, moving, college, and even my NON-EXISTANT love life! It was a bit crazy for awhile afterwards. I got upset for all the stupid crap she wanted to know, but didn't need to know, and then she got mad b/c I was mad, and we haven't talked since! Not a big deal though, she always forgets those kinds of things, so by tonight it should be okay again. The ONE thing that really set me off more than everything else was when she asked me why I've seemed so stressed out lately. I kinda had a fit, and explained that I have A LOT on my mind right now; between school, moving, and college coming up, I've just been going through a rough time inside my head, and I'm kinda driving myself crazy about all of it. I just need time to work it all out, and clear my head. So, I then decided, that even though today is friday, and I should have fun, I'm probably just gonna lock myself in my room for the evening, and scream my head off about everything thats been going on. Well, I'm gonna go now, and I'll talk ya all on monday.
^*Luv always, Me

What a CRAZY Life!

I have sssooo many things going on right now! Between moving, packing for college, work, and school. my life is A MESS! I just have so much on my mind. I seriously wanna give someone else my brain for just one day so I don't have to think! I'm driving myself nuts over almost nothing. Smev knows what I mean, we discussed this on the phone last night. CRAZINESS!! Well, I have to go, but hopefully blog again soon.

The Ups and Downs of my near future

Okay, well I've been doing A LOT of thinking these past 2 weeks. First off, it's almost Prom time, and I WANNA GO! But b/c I'm starting to pack up all my stuff.(Not only am I going off to college in the fall, I also have to move everything that I DON'T take with me to either my grandparents or my mom's boyfriend's house - which is where she's moving to.) We have to sell our house because my mom and dad signed a paper saying that he didn't have to pay child support after we graduate high school or turn 18. (whichever happened first.) Unfortunately, we turned 18 last month, and graduate in June. So I have been, and am going to be doing a LOT more packing than everyone else I know. I mean, how many people do you actually know that have gone off to college, and have to come home in the for Christmas and the summer, but when they come home they don't have an actual HOME??? (I mean, I'll have a bed and a dresser at my gram's and mom's boyfriend's, but it's not my own room! - Fortunately I'll have my own room in my apartment up at college, but still, it's not really mine! I'm renting it! I wanna come home to MY OWN ROOM!) But I guess I'm just gonna have to face facts and wait at least 4 years (or until I have my own place) for that to happen. Well, I have to go now, but maybe I'll be back sometime soon.

Oh, and Hungry, I hope you're having fun in Florida without me! *sniffles*

BESS is down!!

*YES!* The school blocker is down today, so I can blog! Well, Hungry is now on her way to Disney today. *sniffles* Okay, Update from the February 5th post.
I got accepted into Clarion's Venango Campus as of Wednesday, March 16th. I have to get accepted as an Undecided major, and in the beginning of my 2nd year, I can get into the Nursing Program. I'M SO EXCITED!
If I don't get back anytime soon, then that means Bess is back. Then, it's all up to Hungry whenever she gets a chance to update for me. Luvs to all!

Hungry is Successful!!!

Guess who finally found the note? That's right, Hungry is here. Apparently I had the wrong s/n, but the note helped clear things up. :D For those of you who don't know, our school's internet system aka Bess has blocked www.blogger.com Therefore, Sheep can't blog. I'm blogging from home right now. Hint: what I write in purple is Hungry's comments; what I write in red is Sheep's comments. Anyway, here's what happened a long time ago.

January 15 - I have been sick with bronchial-phneomonia and was only in school for half a day on Monday and a full day on Wednesday because I had an economics final and my graduation project after school. I was out on Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. I also ended up in the hospital from Wed. evening through Friday morning. I'm feeling much better now though. (considering it's about 2 months later :P )

January 19 - This morning, one of my best friends from first grade (not Hungry)'s grandma died of a heart attack. I'm going to miss her lots because she not only was always around, she gave me my first Bible. RIP Gramma Heckert!!

February 5 - I went to Clarion University's Vanango Campus in Oil City, PA yesterday to take my pre-admissions exam for their school of nursing. I feel really confident that I did well on it. I also LOVED the campus! It was so beautiful! And, there's only 10 days til my 18th b-day!!

Yup, thats all for now. Maybe now since I finally got in she can update more often...er...I can update more often ha ha