Hoping for a new beginning...

I got a new job @ Shadyside Hospital a few wks ago as a telephone operator. I like it SO MUCH better that the old job! ;) Every job has its drama & rough points, but for the most part taking this job was for the better. I took my pre-admissions exam last saturday to get into nursing school. Let's hope I get in. *crosses fingers*

The love life is a whole different story. It's been going pretty downhill for quite a few months now, I've just chose to ignore it. I've hit the end. I can't handle it anymore. There are days I wanna avoid him completely & say go the f*** away, & other days I sorta miss how it used to be. It was nice in the beginning. Cards, flowers, & just being so interested in how my day went. Now; it's like 'eh, w/e'. He'll listen, but there's next to no interest. :-\ There are several options that have arose to start a new beginning & be happy again. I just don't really know how to do it. I love this one, I really do. I just can't stand how he lives his life & doesn't care or have any intentions of changing how he does things. (Or should I say, things he doesn't do?) Job-wise I'm content, friends & family-wise I'm wonderful--I miss them all!; but love-wise I just don't seem happy anymore. There just seems to be no future there anymore. All I see is living next to a junk yard--which I don't want! I think it's about time for an upgrade in my life. Time for something/someone who isn't always gonna have me so worried about what's coming next. I'd rather just be wondering instead of worrying. O:-)

An Update On Life...

Well work @ Magee is still the same--SUCKSSSS!!! But I've gone on several interviews lately so lets hope something goes good. ;)

And I know it seems like everyone says this, but for me I really believe it's true: "Once something good comes along, something bad always seems to follow."
I go thru all these interviews & a few seem pretty promising, but of course my mother HAS to ruin it by saying "I hope your boyfriend will still pick you up @ 11 when you work that late even w/ his new job." ..He's gotta work be @ work @ 6am, and she just leaves @ that time & she still wants HIM to come all that way to pick me up from work, take me home, & go home himself?! I DON'T THINK SO!!!

But anywho, life as a whole is okay. I still can't wait to get my new ring & become stable enough to get outta here! Then; early next year, I'll be going to Florida to check out some beaches to see exactly where it's all gonna take place in 2010. 8-) I CAN'T WAIT!!!!

Well; that's a basic update on my life. Ttyl <3>



(Destin, FL) 8-)

It's been about a year since I last wrote on here. Well; all is well, & going on 2 years w/ the boyfriend! ;-) It seems like it's been SO much longer, I just can't believe it. I started working at Magee-Women's Hospital in September '07 doing housekeeping and escorting on the labor and delivery unit.

As for last month-it couldn't of gone by fast enough. I had been having constant headaches w/ MAJOR pressure for about 2 months beforehand, and saw a neurosurgeon on March 31, 2008. As it turned out, I needed major brain surgery and a spinal tap to measure the amount of fluid & pressure in my head. (They were certain that my shunt had failed; which meant I had a blockage and fluid had built up on my brain-hence the headaches w/ pressure.) So on the morning of April 8, 2008, I had my surgery. (REALLY freaky how I had my shunt originally placed on April 12, 1987--ALMOST exactly 21 years later!) They put me to sleep and did the spinal tap; then, went in and removed the blockage and the fluid instantly started draining right again. Immediately after surgery while I was laying in the recovery room, I started to cry b/c I didn't have a headache anymore. Having as many medical problems as I did as a kid, it's pretty amazing when the surgeon comes to see you after surgery and tell you to your face "You were VERY CLOSE to dying before that surgery!". It's funny knowing I thought I felt fine before. I was just getting older which meant I inherited the bad headaches that my family all has. And NOW. I feel SO much better! The scariest part to me (besides the surgeon telling me I almost died) was knowing that a normal amount of pressure and fluid on the brain is 70%, and my percentage on the day of surgery was OVER 300%! That's SO DEADLY!!!!!

Anyway, I'm all better now. Having a nice time being off work for 6 weeks. Going back the week of May 19th. BOO! haha Aside from all that craziness, on April 11, 2008, a very good family friend passed away of a massive heart attack at the age of 56! It hit everyone so hard. I took it so hard not only b/c I KNEW he would be the ONE person to wanna see my scar right away just to make a joke about to make me laugh and for the fact that he was the life of all the family get togethers at my aunts, but b/c the whole time I thought to myself "that COULD'VE been me". Really changes your outlook on life. RIP Rich! ;(

It's About TIME!

This year was off to a fairly rough start. W/ being completely dicked over by McD's & then having to deal w/ my best friend going to Ireland for 4 mths. After alittle while of getting over all my obstacles, I started to smile again as I got on w/ my life. I have a WONDERFUL boyfriend who I've been w/ for almost a year now(May 11th), and I love dearly w/ all my heart & soul. I'm so glad I have him & all my great friends. W/o them I probably would've crashed & burned a week after my best friend left the country. It's now just alittle over a month until she comes back to the states from studying abroad & I can't wait! :-D

I'm just so glad that classes are going well for me; even though the work thing still isn't so great, but I'm still doing fine. Just waiting for the day that I'm able to look my mother in the face & say that 'I'm outta here!' w/ a ring on my finger so I can finally start my life w/ the love of my life. :-* As for my family & and friends; all is well, & I just can't wait to see my best friend again! :-)

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Well; that's life...

Well; the last relationship didn't seem to work out, but I'm really diggin' this one and I know it's gonna work out for the best this time. I used to always say 'Yeah; he's PART of what I've always wanted..'; but when it comes to this one, he really is everything I've ever wanted. He's amazing, funny, great to talk to, AMAZING blue eyes, AND he's a country boy! (Always a plus in my book!) :-D Okay, that's all I have for now. Lovin' life to the fullest! :-)

Another Chance...

Well; I've been talking to this kid for a few days now; and he seems really nice! Everytime we talk, we're always jokin' around and just laughin' about who knows what! (Gotta love a good sense of humor!) I am, however; really starting to fall for him b/c he's just amazing! (My family, however; seems to try and tell me otherwise.) But, ya know what?! It's my life, and I'm gonna live it MY WAY! They just need to realize, that YES; their opinions do count for something, but when it comes to my personal life, I live it THE WAY I WANNA LIVE IT!

"AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!" -'nuff said!

Wow! It's been quite the nite/day! First I get the WORST news of my life!(NEVER thought I would EVER hear that!) Then, MORE BAD NEWS! ...Don't really feel like explaining details; but all in all; IT'S GETTING WORSE! I mean; the more I think about it all(CAN'T STOP!-obvioulsy!), the more mad/upset I get; and the more I just wanna die! ...In SOME WAYS, I wanna go home! NOW! But then again; I really don't!(for so many reasons!-too much MORE idiotic crap to deal w/ there!) Somebody SAVE ME!!! I just need to scream: "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!" Okay, I feel somewhat better now. I'm OUT! Lata, y'all!

MY KITTY!(RIP Peachy! 'Home's definitely not the same w/o you to cuddle w/ at nite! Jake's so lost w/o you too! He's now become my new sidekick at home b/c he knows that I'm just as lonely as he is w/o you there!" *Mwah!*) I LOVE YOU!!! 

My new baby cousin, Matthew! 

Trish and me on our last day @ NHS! (We were the BEST DAMN attendance secretaries that Norwin had EVER seen! -"Guard *the pen* w/ your life!!!" LOL Trish!) 

Trish, Kendge, and me on our last day @ NHS! 

Kendge, Trish, and me @ the Kenny Chesney concert! 

Me and Trish @ ENP after graduation!(the nite we'll all NEVER FORGET!-CLOWN CAR!) lol 

Kendge, Trish, and me after graduation! 

Hungry, Kendge, Trish, and me after graduation! 

ME! 

I'm a Pittsburgh girl...

"A PITTSBURGH GIRL KNOWS JUST AS MUCH ABOUT FOOTBALL AS HER GUY FRIENDS, IN SOME CASES, EVEN MORE. SHE DRINKS BEER BECAUSE IT TASTES GOOD BUT KNOWS WHEN TO BE CLASSY AND DRINK SOMETHING MORE SOPHISTICATED. SHE OWNS A STEELER JERSEY NOT JUST BECAUSE ITS CUTE BUT BECAUSE SHE SUPPORTS HER TEAM AND UNDERSTANDS THE GAME. SHE LOVES KENNYWOOD AND ISN'T AFRAID TO ORDER CHEESE FRIES FROM THE POTATO PATCH BECAUSE, LETS FACE IT, PITTSBURGH GIRLS WEAR WINTER COATS AND SCARVES A LOT MORE THAN BIKINIS AND FLIP FLOPS. A PITTSBURGH GIRL LOVES ST. PATRICK'S DAY EVEN IF SHES NOT IRISH BECAUSE GREEN BEER IS GOOD FOR THE SOUL. PITTSBURGH GIRLS DON'T HAVE A FUNNY ACCENT. THEY JUST SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE. THE WORD YINZ IS DEAR TO HER HEART. A PITTSBURGH GIRL BLEEDS BLACK AND GOLD AND KNOWS HOW TO HAVE A GREAT TIME. SHES STYLISH AND SWEET AND NEVER TRASHY. SHE HAS A GREAT EDUCATION AND LOVES HER FRIENDS AND FAMILY. A PITTSBURGH GIRL GOES TO CHURCH ON SUNDAY HUNG OVER, ONLY TO BE LET OUT BY THE PRIEST EARLY BECAUSE THE STEELERS KICK OFF AT ONE. A PITTSBURGH GIRL MIGHT NOT LIVE BY THE BEACH BUT THE THREE RIVERS ARE JUST AS GOOD! SHE HAS SEEN ALL FOUR SEASONS AND HAS A REASON TO LOVE AND HATE EACH OF THEM. SHES THE TYPE OF GIRL YOU CAN CALL LATE AT NIGHT AND SPILL YOUR HEART OUT TO. SHES THE TYPE YOU CAN TAKE HOME TO MOM AND DAD WITHOUT WORRYING THEY WON'T LIKE HER. BECAUSE EVERYONE LOVES A PITTSBURGH GIRL. IF YOU NEED A GIRL TO TAKE TO THE GAME, SHE'LL BE THERE. IF YOU NEED A FRIEND TO HELP YOU OUT AT THE MALL, SHES THERE. IF YOU NEED A DRINKING BUDDY, SHE'LL BE THERE WITH HER IC LIGHT. SO GIVE HER A POKE IF YOU LOVE HER. SEND HER A MESSAGE AND LET HER KNOW YOU CARE. COPY AND PASTE THIS ON HER WALL TO LET HER KNOW: YOU CAN TAKE THE GIRL OUT OF PITTSBURGH BUT YOU CAN'T TAKE THE PITTSBURGH OUT OF THE GIRL!" I'm totally a Pittsburgh girl, and DAMN PROUD OF IT!

What a GREAT half of a weekend! :-D

Well, Mark came up to visit me yesterday. It was just so nice to see him and spend some time w/ him! I never wanted it to end! :-( But I'm sure I'll see him again soon; or at least I hope so. I was just really bummed when it came time for him to leave.(It just made me realize that YES; we are quite some miles apart; but I just felt like he only lived just down the street! -Yeah; I wish! Then, I'd see him all the time.) But, I guess for now; I'll just deal w/ only seeing him. on adverage, about once a month; and just stick to the online/phone convo's everyday. :-) I just really have to look forward to next year when I transfer from here; and hopefully I'll see him more than once a month. *crosses fingers* ...Well, I'm gonna go watch some tv and attempt to get SOME sleep b/c I didn't sleep at all last nite(of course, would you if you were all alone?).

Happy Sweetest Day!

Happy Sweetest Day, everyone! Today, is a day to go out and celebrate being w/ the one you love; if you have no *special someone*, then just LOVE YOUR FRIENDS!(b/c you know they'll always be there for ya!) :-) ... "Happy Sweetest Day, Mark!" :-* I hope everyone has a wonderful day, and GREAT rest of the weekend!